I Know You Don’t Want to Be Changed

And I will give you a new heart, and a new spirit I will put within you. And I will remove the heart of stone from your flesh and give you a heart of flesh. // Ezekiel 36:26

Most mornings she woke with the intensity of a firecracker. There was no adorable baby babble or sweet calls for mama coming from down the hall; she simply screamed and yelled, moving me into her room much earlier than I’d expected. Usually, the moment I entered her room to rescue her, she moved seamlessly from gloom and doom to bright and sunny. As if she forgot she was howling like an animal caught in a trap just seconds before.

But on one particular day, she had her angry eyebrows affixed permanently onto her little face. (Thank you, Toy Story.) Upon lifting her out of her crib, I realized the diaper had leaked through and her red polka dot footie pajamas were now soaked. Immediately, I laid her down in front of my kneeling form to change her into something fresh and clean. But she resisted, coming completely unglued.

She tried to twist and turn every which way to get out of my grasp. But since I’m a mama who is not about let a child win a battle of the wills, I persisted. Rolling her back over again and again, keeping my heart set on what was best for her. Until finally, I stood her then twenty-one pound body up so she was eye to eye with me and said,

“Emmalie, Mama needs to change you. I know you don’t want to be changed, but you’ll feel so much better when I’m done. I need you to be still for me.”

And she did. She kept her brow furrowed and gave me a bit of a stink eye, but didn’t move or make a noise while I cleaned her up.

The words I said to my crabby baby replayed over and over in my mind. Then He spoke into my thoughts. Those words are for you, Amanda.

“I need to change you. I know you don’t want to be changed, but you’ll feel so much better when I’m done.”

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Amanda is the mother of eight kids through birth and adoption and has been married for eighteen years to the most helpful man on the planet. She is an encouraging voice for moms everywhere through the written and spoken word. In addition to The Masterpiece Mom blog and podcast, she also writes at AmandaBacon.com and is over the top in love with Instagram (@amanda_baconbits). Come over and say hi!
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Amanda is the mother of eight kids through birth and adoption and has been married for eighteen years to the most helpful man on the planet. She is an encouraging voice for moms everywhere through the written and spoken word. In addition to The Masterpiece Mom blog and podcast, she also writes at AmandaBacon.com and is over the top in love with Instagram (@amanda_baconbits). Come over and say hi!

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  1. Thanks Amanda. I have been listening to the Pastor at Emmanuel Wesley Church in Salisbury, MD where my son attends college. His sermon the other week was just on this–wanting results but not willing to change -and sometimes just blaming “how we are wired”, or saying “I just don’t do this or that”. We really need to open our heart and ears to what God is telling us.

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