Are You a Worrier or a Warrior?

The sounds of the night seemed amplified in my fearful mama ears. Every creak. Every little slumbering sigh. The shifting and groaning of the house as it cooled from the warmth of the day. The clicking of the water heater. All seemed deafening, causing me to hold my breath. I could hear the tick-tick-ticking of the clock in the living room. The buzzing of my laptop as it ran updates. I tried to get comfortable in our bed, flipping and flopping, finally shifting to the very middle of the mattress since my husband wasn’t there to take up the extra space. If he was here, I wouldn’t be in this worried nervous state. But he wasn’t. He was gone on a lengthy business trip leaving me alone to play the role of Chief Defender and Master Parent, taking care of our small business, the kiddos, garden and house.

ArmorTick-tick-tick. After an hour or two of tossing and turning, I finally began to relax. Tiredness crept over me, making the war of staying awake a much harder fight. Our bed felt good. And it had been a looong day. The children were finally asleep after spending much of the day spazzed and ampted up, pushing every single one of my mommy buttons with daddy gone. The dishes were all cleaned and put away. I had turned the dryer off so I could hear all the nighttime noises. Just in case, you understand.

Come on brain, turn off! You should be trusting in the Lord to take care of us instead of staying awake worrying about being Protector Mama of our family abode. What was the verse I would say to the kids when one of them had a nightmare or couldn’t sleep? Oh yes.  Psalm 4:8 – “I will lie down and sleep in peace, for You alone, O Lord, make me dwell in safety.”  Safety. Yes. God would keep us safe. Safe meant secure. Secure meant protected. I took a deep breath and allowed my body to sink slowly into the therapeutic softness of the sheets. Tick-tick-tick.

A sudden whirr jolted me from my semi-sleeping state. My heart beat fast and loud in my ears. What in the world was that? My tired brain couldn’t quite make sense of it. Something or someone was banging around on our back porch! Just on the other side of the wall!!! Come on, Anne-Renee. Think clearly. And whatever you do, don’t panic!

Oh duh. {Huge sigh of relief now.} It was just the hot tub jets doing their middle of the night cleaning cycle. Come on heart, slow down now. Tick-tick-tick.

clockCan anyone else relate? Has worry or fear ever kept you up at night? Kept you from relaxing and resting when deep down you knew everything was okay? I know…what a silly question to ask a mom. We worry as naturally as we breathe. We worry about our children’s safety. We worry about hurting a friend’s feelings over having to cancel a playdate. We worry crazy things like someone will break into our house, allowing our imaginations creative license to manufacture all sorts of “What If” scenarios. We grow anxious and apprehensive in light of the unknown or sense a loss of environmental mom control.

Well, what if worry could be replaced?  “Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” (Philippians 4:6-7)

What if we chose to replace worry with vigilant prayer warrior skills, substituting anxiousness with prayerfulness? What if we let our requests be made known to God, then left them there, allowing His peace to safeguard our weary minds and hearts?

baby sleepingOh, what peace that would bring. What relief! We wouldn’t have to hold on to all the What-If’s. We could simply focus on trusting. We could rest instead of fret. Unwind instead of allowing our minds to become a hamster wheel of worry. We could finally bestow our tired mama bodies the gift of relaxation and rejuvenation that we so desperately need, especially in the wee hours.

So how ‘bout it? Care to join me in a Worrier to Warrior challenge?

I’m sure there will be days where we will still hear the bumps in the night. But we can choose our response; what we want to do about them. We can wallow in worry, or, we can relinquish those worries and hand them over to the Warrior of Heaven. His arms are big enough to handle them. His heart tender enough to care. He loves us so much, He gives us a choice:

Do we want to be a Worrier or a Warrior?

Which will you choose today?

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Anne-Renee Gumley

Anne-Renee is a full-time mom who works part-time at her family's party store. She has two children who keep her laughing, a husband who keeps her smiling, and an itch for writing that just won't go away.
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Anne-Renee is a full-time mom who works part-time at her family's party store. She has two children who keep her laughing, a husband who keeps her smiling, and an itch for writing that just won't go away.

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  1. Hi there, catching up on posts over here! This post reminded me of this last winter I went through with my sleepless baby and many nights spent awake. It seemed that the less I slept the more I worried and grew in anxiousness. I’ve often been reminded of a verse I had posted over my bed as a teen. Psalm 17:8, Keep as the apple of your eye, hide me in shadow of your wings. I find a lot of comfort in those words when I feel fear.

    • Hooray for catching up! Yes, isn’t it so true that with minimal sleep, our worries seem to multiply? Thanks for sharing “your” verse too! Great reminder that we are well-protected and well-loved!

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